My Accutane Journey - 1st Month

Halo everyone.

This is a continuity of my previous post "Pimples Drama".
So, you guys better check this first: http://springonvenus.blogspot.com/2013_07_01_archive.html

Yesterday, I've been through the Accutane Treatment for a month. The first excruciating-month. Literally, I mean it.
You may think this post is exaggerating. But trust me do not comment until you walk in my shoes.
My face getting more itchy, burn, and hurt day by day. Not to mention the lost appetite, hair loss, and mental problem.

On the first and second week, I got the worst breakout on my entire life. I can't barely feel my skin face, its all cover with acne! Then this big girl locked herself at home, cried over and over. I was at home on Ied vacation. Mom and Dad were so worried about my condition.
The most excruciating time is on morning, when I'm using acne lotion and sunscreen. Feels like there are thousand ants walking on my face.

I read on the internet that this is normal. Accutane will caused acne worst at first, but it will work after third month.  

Then here it comes, the first day at work, after vacation.
I got a sleepless night, because over thinking. Tried to composed the answer of "what happens to your face?" "Oh, my God, it's getting worst!" "Shasa kenapa?" "Kok bisa sih Sha?" "Coba ke dokter ini deh....bla bla bla..."

On the day, these things really happened. But I'm stronger than I thought I would be.
I answered the questions with smiles.

Day by day getting more and more hard.
Dry skin, dry lips, I handled it before it comes. Petroleum Jelly, lip balm, body lotion, and mineral water are my best friends.
I lost 4 kilos because of lost appetite. Which I don't really happy, because my weight was on normal scale! And now I'm officially underweight.
I can't exposed to sunlight. It burns and become red. I avoid more eye contact with people. I turn aside from crowd. I put my head down when the elevator opens. I feel like everyone is whispering on my back saying "that's a poor thing happens to that girl's face..."
Camera? Oh just don't ask me.
Feels like I'm shrinking to the corner of my office room, or hoping take a long holiday in a cave on desert island until my skin face back to normal.

Reading a forum about accutane treatment really makes me feeling better. All I can do is stick to it, be patient, and closed my ears. Because this thing need long time, 6 months!
I'm trying so hard not to get stress and depressed, because another trouble will come to me if I do.

I really hope my skin back like it used to be, just like 9 months ago.

Good thing needs time.

"Wish List in 5" Challenge

So,
I visited many blogs and read this game list challenge. Kinda fun, so I decided to join in. They usually start with "20 list of random things from yourself", but I figured it hard to listed up, because I found every sides of me is random. Hahaha.
So let's take a start with "WISH LIST IN 5".

Here we go!

List 5 things you will request in heaven.
1. Wings and fly!
2. a tree of mango, kiwi, and durian.
3. Hill of Haagen-Dazs. Belgian Chocolate.
4. Waterfall of Sour Sally Froyo in 4 flavour, plain, strawberry, taro, and mint. (Oh my Holy God!!!)
5. Unlimited bucket of KFC original chicken breast.
6. Rain of marshmallow and m&ms milk chocolate.
Ups. That was 6 by the way. Lol!

*List 5 things that you wish you were great at.
1. Sing
2. Swim
3. Playing Guitar like a pro
4. Cook as good as my Mom
5. Walking happily in heels (pray harder on this!)

*List people you wish you would have dinner with.
1. Hugh Jackman
2. Christian Bale
3. Ryan Gosling
4. Jude Law
5. David Beckham

*List people you wish to have go to Disneyland with.
1. Ellen Degeneres
2. Robert Downey Jr.
3. Taylor Swift
4. My lil brother, Randa
5. Jennifer Lawrence
6. Ashton Kutcher
Whoops, its six!

*List your childhood wishes.
1. Supermodel (and stopped dreaming when my height is only reach 167cm)
2. Mother
3. Writer
4. Princess
5. Jupiter on Sailor Moon. (lol! So cute huh)

*List body parts of famous people that you wish to have.
1. Candice Swanepoel's glute
2. Emma Watson's eyes and eyebrows
3. Kendall Jenner's legs
4. Miranda Kerr's dimples and jawline
5. Christopher Nolan's brain and mind. Wait, wait, this is a body part right? Lol.
But I am happy enough with my own body now. No self-esteem decreasing when writing this. :)

*List your current wishes.
1. Eat much food without getting fat or sick
2. Tree that grows Money
Hahaaa... Well my current wishes are kinda private. :)
 
Done.
Still figured out what to post on the next challenge.
Catch up with you later.
Bye bye.
:)


*PS: I do not own the picture. It took from many sources.