Oh, I Don't Wanna Grow Up......

Your little hand's wrapped around my finger
And it's so quiet in the world tonight
Your little eyelids flutter cause you're dreaming
So I tuck you in, turn on your favorite night light
                     To you everything's funny, you got nothing to regret
                     I'd give all I have, honey
                     If you could stay like that
You're in the car on the way to the movies
And you're mortified your mom's dropping you off
At 14 there's just so much you can't do
And you can't wait to move out someday and call your own shots
                     But don't make her drop you off around the block
                     Remember that she's getting older too
                     And don't lose the way that you dance around in your pj's getting ready for school
Take pictures in your mind of your childhood room
Memorize what it sounded like when your dad gets home
Remember the footsteps, remember the words said
And all your little brother's favorite songs
I just realized everything I have is someday gonna be gone                
                     So here I am in my new apartment
                     In a big city, they just dropped me off
                     It's so much colder that I thought it would be
                     So I tuck myself in and turn my night light on  
Wish I'd never grown up
I wish I'd never grown up
Oh I don't wanna grow up, wish I'd never grown up
I could still be little
Oh I don't wanna grow up, wish I'd never grown up
It could still be simple
(TAYLOR SWIFT- NEVER GROW UP)

My Accutane Journey - 3rd Month

Hi....

Been a long time to post something.
Work is on normal flow, Life gets better, but still I don't have things to write on the blog.

Oh well, this month is the third month of my Accutane Journey. Yeay! It is almost done baby, almost!!!
I woke up everyday with only one acne, even sometimes found none. No more hurt or itchy feeling on my face. And the best part is my self esteem increasing! I am happy girl!

I am now started to wearing make up, and have guts to face the mirror and camera. Eye contact with people, having a presentation at work, and go out with friends.

I started to get acnes at October 2012, and it is now getting to heal on October 2013.
What a loooong year huh!  Not only sacrificed feeling, but also money!
Don't ask me about shopping or saving. This year was soooo... you know. :(

The effect of Accutane is started to calm down. Lost appetite- previously I lost 8 kilos, but now I am back to my normal weight. Dry skin and lips- thanks to Vaseline petroleum jelly (seriously I can't live without this!) and Body Shop butter cream.

But still it is not over yet. The acne marks are everywhere, the scars are still there. I still have a lot to do. I'm working on that.
To the girl out there who suffered from acne, I got you, Darl! I know how it feels. Be patient, stick to your medicine, even it gets worst. And plug your ears to negative comments. That's the key.
We don't live to fulfill society definition of beauty. I ain't born to impressed people.

So stay happy!

My Accutane Journey - 2nd Month

Haloo....

Today is my second month of accutane.

 Second month yeaay!

Improvements? YES!!
It may be a little, but I am happy enough!
Forehead done, jawline done, only some acnes at skin near nose and lips.
Feels like the sunshine is coming back to my life. lol!

My second month was not easy. I heard most people stops breaking in third weeks, but I still got so many pimples even in week.
The key is patient and never give up!
Do not stop your medicine. Just don't. It may be (well it is) seems WORST at weeks.
But trust me, it's your skin adapting. Stick to it, do not stress or depressed (this is important).
Stress is number one cause of pimples.
For me, I'm trying to distract myself. I read so many books, watch horror movies, (horror movies keeps me sleep earlier, because I don't wanna awake at midnight to avoid paranoia. haha, it works-for several days only.), and play guitar to keep my hands busy-get that away from my skin face.
And don't forget to close your ears to negative comments, and put those mirrors away.

Well, it still need loong loong journey ahead.
I still need lipbalm and petroleum jelly. Camera and mirrors are still my biggest enemy.
But..... (inhale exhale) I'm enjoying this process.
Hope I'll be back with big biiigg improvements next month.

Bye!